
I am still worn out from the Holidays, although it's all of my own making. I decided to make food gift to give as Xmas presents - not unheard of....except this is me we're talking about. I don't cook for pleasure, just to survive
and because I
have to feed my family. I did it though! I made 8 large sausage, cheese and basil lasagna's from scratch out of my Bon Appetit cookbook. 5 Shepherds pies with Rutabaga topping from my Martha Stewart cookbook. 4 homemade tiramisu's from 3 different recipes. I was trying to find the one I liked best - which happens to be the one laden with Khalua (got a buzz after just 4 bites). And if you like molasses cookies, I finally made these awesome Giant Shaker Rosemary cookies. They are brilliant! I also made Martha's toasted walnut and cream cheese cookies (they are really super rich shortbread cookies - almost too rich, and I love creamy fatness....terrible). The crazy thing is that I was so glad it was all over and I told everyone "never again" but here I am a couple of weeks later pouring through all of my cookbooks again, trying to find something else to make. I actually want to torture myself some more. I've freaking lost my mind! WhatI really need to do is find some really incredible tasting healthy recipes. Low fat, low cal, lower carbs.
During the month of December I stopped going to the gym, stopped watching what I ate and basically gained 20 lbs in 5 weeks. Honestly - it was 25 pounds, but I've started slowing down my month long binge and now it's back to the long slow process of losing weight again! I do miss the gym though. I love weight training - it's just the taking that 1st step back, because I'd have to get up at 4:30 in the morning.
Well, my 50th birthday's coming up and for my birthday I'm going to give myself the present of losing 40 lbs between now and then. My body may feel 50 sometimes, but my spirit feels like 10 or 12 years old a lot of times. I'm still in love with life and this world - I still am so fascinated by everything, people, nature, miracles. There's so much to do, so much to see - and if I want to something as mundane as to learn how to crochet, or learn how to identify wild plants for the art of healing or make my own dandelion wine - I am going to do it with GUSTO!