Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Innocent Question


Theresia just told me that Kendall asked her where all the mommy long-leg spiders were. That is SO adorable! But really. Why are they called "daddy" long-legs? I'll have to google that. I love those simple questions and you know Kendall is really wondering. Sometimes children ask the type of questions that philosophers are still pondering over, about the world, the universe, God, death. Stuff I can't even wrap my mind around...
I've been with the same company for 15 1/2 years! It's my home away from home with my 2nd family and we all love each other. Occasionally there are days when my co-workers and I would say we couldn't wait to get home and have a glass of wine. Usually because we've had either a great busy day or a bad busy day or a slow day (which can wear on you just as bad). By the time I get home and spend anytime around my children, I can't explain it but it's like within minutes, all is good in the world.
OK now, I'm not saying that there haven't been times where my older daughter's as teenagers haven't almost driven me to the bottle. Now that would be a lie! (And the reality is I do love wine, port *in the fall*, liquors, tequila, martinis, etc. I've just become more of a special occasion drinker.) But on the whole, just being around my girls re-energizes and grounds me at the same time. I hope that I do the same for them. I'm not big into country music buy there are a few I like. Lee Ann Womack's "I Hope You Dance" That's so pretty, heartfelt and what all mother's want for their daughters (and sons).

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Lauren's old costume

I found this buried in a box in the shed with some other Halloween stuff. It's part of a Mummy Queen costume that I bought at Caufields for Lauren years ago. The problem is that I can't locate the cool crown and medallion so we'll have to improvise. If we go with this idea then I'm going to paint her face like Cleopatra. I'm just concerned because I think the under-dress is too snug fitting on Rachael. It's really an adult costume for someone taller and meant to reveal curves. Sooo...maybe not. Unless - I can come up with another under dress. Well, we have a whole month. I want to be a spider infested zombie. Or just a plain old white sheet with 2 holes Ghost! I love October!! I love Halloween!!!

I sanded and scraped Rachael's walls and washed them down with some old Soilex that I found under my sink. You can't buy that stuff anywhere anymore and it was the best! I wonder why? We're going to prime everything Tuesday night and then paint the following Monday. Rachael loves blues and greens so we're going to decide between a pretty mossy green or a blue that has a little more gray in it to remind her of the ocean. Then I have to set up the white iron bunk bed that she inherited from her cousin Suzanna. Most of what I furnished my house with has been either handed down or bought at Good Will, yard sales or dragged home from the side of the road. OK, I realize some things were better left on the curb, but I'm comfortable with furniture that I can put my feet up on and not worry about scratches or dents. There are a couple of pieces that have potential to be really pretty one day if I can ever have them slipcovered.

Theresia's embarrassed by the junkie, hodge-podge, mismatched look of my small home, but I guess it's a part of who I am. I love yard sales and Good Will! Don't get me wrong, I drool over Ethan Allen, Thomasville and Henredon. But come on, really. I'd much rather invest in education & memories, or even a car or home repairs! This coming weekend we're going to pack a picnic and head back to Bernheim Forest to hike some of the trails we've already picked out on their map. Then Sunday we're going to the St James Art Festival which is always very cool. Otter Creek is doing something fun too which I wanted to squeeze in, but we've got a lot of chores that need attention too and I have to some yard work :o(. I hate yard work!!! Phooey! So maybe if we get most of the work done, we can hit Otter Creek too! We shall see...

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Bittersweet: Breakup & Kids

This is Rachael with Lexie & Logan Nall. Two of the sweetest, most well behaved kids I know (of course including my girls, nieces & nephews as well). When their father, Kelly, ended our 3 1/2 year relationship in the very beginning of this summer, I was hurt (it was the first time that anyone has ever broken up with me) and somewhat, but not terribly surprised. What did devastate & surprise me was his admission that he had cheated on me with his current friend Kat, an old classmate from Ball State University. Apparently they'd made an emotional & physical connection before Kelly broke up with me. She was in the process of getting divorced and told Kelly that she had been in love with him since their 1 year together in college over 23 years ago. I am kind of blown away by the idea of that kind of love - very powerful.
As for Kelly & I...well, about a year ago, he suggested moving in together, engagement, all that jazz. I think it might have been then that I panicked and started back-peddling. I'd been drifting away and emotionally disconnecting for almost a full year. He was lonely & sad, I felt guilty & sad. Up until that last month he had been asking me to make more time for him...and I couldn't - I don't know why. He is a funny, brilliant, self-taught, sweet man who is very social & fun-loving. I had enjoyed my time with him, he was a good companion. For a while, he was my best friend as well as my boyfriend. And I did love him...I did. I just think that we both had our hang-ups & expectations and neither one of us lived up to each others'. If there are different levels of love, then maybe we didn't love each other enough. Or maybe we did but it's true what they say, sometimes love just isn't enough. Who really knows?
During the course of the summer he told me over and over that he needed me in his life, that I was very important to him, he didn't want to lose my friendship and that he would love me always. Now being the creature of habit that I was, all I wanted to do all summer was get back into his arms - back to my comfort zone. And it happened. But it changed nothing except to make me realize that I really didn't want to be the bad, bad ex-girlfriend. So I ended the "friendship" that we tried to maintain over the summer. It was too hard and I had finally started going through this angry stage for a bit. But anger doesn't fit me well, I could never hang on to it and why would I even want to? In the end, I realized I had gotten over him quicker than expected just by ending our communication. These days when I think about him, I think about Kat too. They look very similar to me, like they belong together, it's something about them. I never could see that in my pictures with Kelly. Maybe it's all about perception...

The tragic part of this for me is the loss of the children. This has been my first relationship with someone who had children of their own. I grew to love them as they loved me. I didn't want to lose them, but I had to do the right thing. Rachael & I both suffered in this together. Lexie (11) was one of her best friends. They were 2 peas in a pod, the same age, the same ideals, the same attitude, the same propensity for getting into mischief. Logan (8) will become another Renaissance Man, brilliant, artistic, inquisitive, sensitive and well-mannered (as both children are). He is so much like his father. We had spent as much time with them as we could this summer before school started. They were like sunshine, but being around them was bittersweet...both soothing & a bit painful as well. I still miss them. We both do. I hope that one day in the future when things settle down we'll be able to see them on occasion. Until then, children are highly resilient and life goes on...

Sunday, September 20, 2009

JTown Gaslight Festival Parade

Kendall at the Jeffersontown Gaslight Festival Parade high fiving the zombies passing by.

All kinds of critters in this parade. It's a small town neighborly social event. I love it!


My middle daughter, Lauren with husband Timmy. Her cousin, Alexandria and fiance Ryan.
My eldest niece Vickie and her best friend (and closest cousin) Lil' Theresia. They're about the same age.

Childhood upstate NY & 1 last 2007 pic


My poor mother! Can you imagine raising this motley crew of 9? You should hear her talk, especially when she's tired or PO'd. It's a cross between a southern and German accent. My father is Japanese (he passed a few years ago) which explains our features. My younger memories of my mother were in Bronx NYC. She was always in a dress, often with pearls and high heels, soft spoken, talked in German because we had our grandparents living with us sometimes. The more kids, the more changes.
Later memories include my mother in capris and tennis flats or even overalls with boots, driving a station wagon, living on a 300 acre farm (mostly woods) upstate New York with Pine trees so old and tall that they reached the sky! Raising goats, drinking goat milk, chickens all over the place, ducks, geese, rabbits. Two cows, Tessie and Bessie, who really were just pets. A horse and a pony. A wildly abundant garden that only my grandmother (whom we all called Oma) and mom could grow. Maple trees that still had their spigots left in them, a broken down sugar house that still had this huge black kettle in it (there were all kinds of sheds and shacks on the property. Acres of apple trees that had outgrew the original orchard but were still productive and blackberries, raspberries and the sweetest, tiniest wild strawberries. There were also patches of rhubarb that we ate raw until we realized too much would give us, ahem...intestinal upset.
There were 3 small ponds, a creek right next to the house, a stream and a spring in the middle of the woods that someone had built a box around. The creek next to the house ran all the way down from the Catskills somewhere. As kids, 11 years and younger, we would try to follow it as far as we could before we got too scared and would turn around and head home. There were 2 decent waterfalls and a thin worn trail. Every once in a blue moon (maybe 2 or 3 times a year, someone would pop out from the woods behind our house loaded down with well worn camping gear, looking a little worse for wear, but always smiling and friendly.

Anyway because of the amount of snow and ice we had along with the occasional blizzard, we had all kinds of sledding and ice-skating gear, I even remember a pair of snow shoes, but although we begged and begged we never could get our dad to buy a snow mobile. When all that snow started melting each spring, it would turn the creek next to our house into a raging river. We weren't allowed to go near it. Other than that though, we pretty much ran wild when we didn't have homework or chores to do. My mother taught me how to catch snakes with my bare hands (which I am too big a chicken to do now), milk goats into a bucket and peel a potato skin so thin you could see through it (and not waste a precious bit). She played tag, ping pong, badminton and board games. She taught us to sing. We knew every song from her favorite movie "The Sound of Music" by heart, all the German children songs, and even Simon & Garfunkel, the Carpenters, the Beatles, etc. It seemed like we sang all the time.
The house itself was an original log cabin that had been added on to. There was a huge front porch with a tin roof that amplified rainfall almost 100 x's. Deafening! The larger addition was to the side of the house and all dilapidated so I could never tell what it's true purpose was except that it was huge and the 2nd floor had a gigantic stage - so I imagine they had music and dancing up there at one time. We had to be careful because the floors were bad and if you weren't paying attention you could fall through. We used the lower level as a massive pantry, an entrance and a place for our German Shepherd, Leah, to sleep at night.
We only lived on the farm for three wonderful years while my father commuted back and forth from the city to be with us on the weekends. In the end, my father got a position in Lexington KY and we had to move. It was the only time I cried when moving and for most of my adult life I planned on returning upstate NY and buying some land up there. Life gets in the way though and also realizations. My family is here in Kentucky now, I wouldn't want to drive to work each day during the treacherous winter season, I like having neighbors within yelling distance, etc. etc. etc.
Back to my mother though, after a few more children she managed to raise the volume and range of her voice higher, would go through all her children's names before she would get to the one she needed (I do it now too - thank God I only have the 3 plus Lucky) and learned to take off her shoe and fling it like a boomerang around corners to find her unlucky target. I'm serious! Her shoe could find you in the middle of a maze! We'd get in trouble, take off running and get hit by a shoe no matter where we went. Her shoe throwing skills are famous! :o)

another 2007 - Little T and Miss Dimples


My eldest daughter Theresia is also my namesake as well as my mothers'. Three generations of Theresia...then came Kendall.

Mom and her grandkids - 2007

I found pictures from our family reunion in 2007. Little Theresia is missing from the picture as well as Kendall (the only great-grandchild at this time). Also Adelaide and Annaleise (my brother Michael's 2 eldest daughters). I can't remember why they weren't there. Still - we're a decent sized family and very prolific. Good news is that there have been no new grandchildren since then. Whew! Maybe the clan has slowed down some...maybe...

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Kendallbella

Here is Kendall waiting for her very first haircut at a cool place called Rex Underground on Bardstown Road. I've heard that Rex moved to a new location since this was taken, but I'm not sure where. Meanwhile take a look at the awesome retro bicycle in the background. I want one of those! I'd ride it AND hang it on my living room wall for decoration! Listening to "Walk on the ocean" Toad the Wet Sprocket.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Lucky Guy - just hanging loose :o)



more Bernheim


Rachael liked the poem so much that she made me take a picture of it!




The bagpipes are always cool. Love them!

Bernheim Forest - Connect Event









I had Rachael today because her dad and Kathy were on a Caribbean cruise this past week and wouldn't be home until later this evening. She hung out with me at my part time job at the nursing home until I got off at 3pm. We ran home to change and then drove to Bernheim Forest for the Connect Event. The place was packed! There were different stations set up around the Lake with different music, crafts, telescope stations, demonstrations, etc. At dusk they lit floating bonfires on the water and had tiki torches lit along the path. Rachael stopped to chat with a walking/talking cockraoch. After our walk, we spread out a sheet and had a small picnic of apples, cheese, salami and crackers. What another beautiful day!

Friday, September 11, 2009

hanging out


Look how big she's getting! Whenever I look at Rachael, I see all her Davis aunts in her features. I'm staring to feel more comfortable having my picture taken again. For the awhile there I was becoming more & more like a Mrs. Potato Head. I kept gaining more and more weight over the years. My features were disappearing into some kind of blob. Finally, there's some hint of definition! And even cooler, I found my dimple again! What's really weird is that it looks like there's another dimple trying to come through on the other side. I don't know though. Is that even possible? Wow, I might even be cute! :o)

Jtown Library Gazebo

I love this place at night when
no one is around. There's even
enough lamp light to read by at night without making it overly bright.

chase the moon


I was taking Olivia home to Elizabeth from a long afternoon at the World Fest when we noticed the full moon and decided to follow it to the Jtown Library's gazebo. The gazebo itself is a beautiful structure and I can't explain it, but we felt really special that night. My camera couldn't capture the moon no matter how hard I tried.

two of my beautiful nieces


Olivia and Katherine... wow...actually getting along! They are sisters so sometimes there is some bickering - particularly over clothes. Typical of teenage girls. In my house my 11 year old (Rachael) fights with my 27 year old (Theresia) over clothes. Rach is very territorial. Where does she get that from?

more world fest

The belly dancers were fun to watch while we ate some hummus and pita. I really preferred the bagpipes on the other stage better. I hope that Rach & I can visit Ireland someday soon.


There's something about this guy. Does he look like any relation to me?

International Festival - Belvedere


Here we are with just some of my awesome nieces and nephews. We were meeting up with other family members at the World Fest. What a Fabulous day. We had a blast!

moving on

Things have been busy, but I feel pretty great. I've lost 2 more pounds this week. I went to the Y just about every day like clockwork at 5am. The one day I missed, I ended up going after work with Rachael. She spent an hour and 20 minutes on the treadmill both running and walking (they have the good cable with Disney channel and Cartoon Network). What a great idea for inclement weather! For right now, she mostly rides her bike and hauls Lucky around the neighborhood. Kendall is riding too - with training wheels. They both need new helmets and I really want a bike for myself now.